27 Weeks Pregnant

Having our babies close in age has always been a dream of ours. When we found out about John Haven’s diagnosis, we had to grieve our dreams. We had to grieve the normalcy we expected in life. We’ve had to arrive at the the truth that’s been true all along: we’re not in control and that’s good.

​There are so many different possibilities on how all of this could end. But my heart can’t rest there. I won’t let it. I won’t think about stillbirth. I fall apart when I think about walking out of the hospital without John Haven. So, I’ll look to the Healer and away from the diagnosis. Because we’re declaring healing and believing He can and He will, with all our hearts. Our sweet boy’s diagnosis and prognosis bring me to my knees. We’re desperate for God’s intervention. But right now, we won’t grieve John Haven’s life. We’ll celebrate it. Because he is so worthy of all of our love and all of our joy!

I pray all the time for John Haven’s healing, but honestly, I spend more time worshipping Jesus for who He is, praising the Lord for his sovereignty and thanking the Lord for John Haven’s life and purpose. It’s what sustains me. Because these weeks can be long. And I often feel weary.

I was spending some time with the Lord before an appointment a few weeks ago. And I saw the miracle. I saw myself holding a perfect baby boy, completely healed. I know this vision was a testament that the Lord WILL heal John Haven. I’ve said it many times before, but we understand his healing could be on earth or in heaven, we’re just believing with all our hearts for healing on earth.

Continue to pray and believe with us. Some days I feel so weary as I pray for miracles, and my spirit is so encouraged to know that I have a community of believers standing with me in prayer.